spurtin’ out ma thots

finally,
i am free.

just give me time,

for the heart
to be able to feel your touch,
and for my soul
to reveal its existence,

once again.

ikut kata hati,
memang dah lama mati,

sebab itu kita dianugerahkan minda,
untuk mengawal hati,
dari membuat perkara tanpa teliti berhati-hati.

Yes,
in searching for my heart and soul,
I found you.
And I fall deeply in love with you, my sayang.

I let you in slowly,
I let your affection and passion touch me layer by layer,
and I am able to finally be free from all the invisible chains and locks from within.

And you,
never for once,
try to take any advantage out of my love for you.

And for this sayang,
I have decided,
we are better off as friends – than lovers.

Coz I would rather sacrifice my love,
than losing a truly greatest friend ever.

drifted,
trapped,
got carried away.

too late to turn back time,
too high floating and dreaming,
too insane to re-assess anything.

then,
you said its over.

yet again,
my heart is smashed to smithereens.

no more love,
no more pain,
no more hope,
no more sense,

soulless once more.