spurtin’ out ma thots

I don’t like to plan something earlier as I know that the possibility for it to fail will be stronger than for it to happen.

But then, he told me that he can’t tolerate last-minute plan. As such, I’ve notified him about the plan 10 days earlier.

And after I’m getting all excited about it (3 days left), he said that most probably, he can’t make it.

I tried to compromise, but hey, I’m still at the losing end.

So?

Stop hoping and start living the reality…!

He (who is a psychopath) actually gave me an idea to actually ‘Google’ my own name and see the result of that action.

To my surprise, I found my ancient blog (dated 6 years ago). I’m in a process of saving all of the entries before cancelling the account for good. Here’s one of the entries (2003-August-12 @ 11:04am) which never fail to make me laugh:

adda: Eh korang.. Edisi Siasat cerita pasal Batang Berjuntai kena perkosa semalam..

kawan A: Kat mana?

kawan S: Siapa?

kawan A: [confused dan merujuk pada kawan S] Kenapa pulak siapa?

kawan S: ‘Benda tu’… Alaaah.. lelaki punya ‘anu‘ tu kena perkosa..

Aku dan adda sama-sama tergelak sampai tersedak mendengar respon kawan S kami..

thinking…
will sometimes
prepare you for what is coming.

but most of the time,
by simply thinking about what is coming,
will make you wonder about the unwanted things.