spurtin’ out ma thots

thanks dear GFs (esp. yana cayang), for being there when i need u the most.

come to really (and carefully) think about it, i couldn’t agree more.

welcome to my world.

concentrated on the assigned tasks . skipped lunch . completed final test . submitted the required project . concluded 2 meetings . handed over 1 last meeting to the rest .

informed him about the-very-last-minute-plan .

as i’ve almost reached there ,

he declined the invitation .

i thought he would at least spare me the time .

well , he didn’t .

effort wasted . went home . injured finger for smashing the lil puppy into pieces .

You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh,

but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry. 

If I am given a chance to have either a taste of heaven or hell…

Definitely,
I will choose hell.

As I have sinned;
for savoring heaven, even before its time.

And I know that sooner or later,
the judgment day will come.

it has never been about love.

come to think of it,

it has always been about lust.

it’s time to move on.

he said; "to detach from someone, u don’t need to ask for a permission…", thanks for lending me ur ears.

for him: i will definitely cherish every moment we have had together. . .  =)

Ben      : all I need is ur sms to keep me alive. and yeah, ure not my kryptonite, but ure my soul for without which I can’t keep on living this life. on a more pressing matter, being single is cool dude.. ;p~ but yes, have to agree that sometimes, ade downtime gak.. ask kak long, she knows better (i guess) hehe

Dura     : eventho u simply quote whateva tiqah said to u, i cudnt agree more.. =) thanks babe for a lil different insight and for being there when I need u the most.

Adda    : about last nyt, aku cuak seh.. memang too good to be true. remember the “plate”, later tonite after isyak kuar lagi.. and thanks for the awal tahun akhir tahun prayer too..! selamat tahun baru ye.. oh ye, bulan 11, u can start counting days from now. hahaha…

8 meets, 1 month texts, 1 month calls.

And I choose to end it here.

Well, of course I have to be selfish. Especially when the current situation didn’t provide the support that I need.

I need to be in control again.

Be it physically or emotionally.

Pain..

is something that I’m so used to live with in the past.

But when it got hold of me last night, I can do nothing except to let it swallow me little by little.

I hate being this helpless me,

but sometimes,

it got the better off me.

The quickest way to receive love is to give; the fastest way to lose love is to hold it too tightly; and the best way to keep love is to give it wings.