spurtin’ out ma thots

they see a controller,
i sense care & tender.

they say ure arrogant,
i know it’s confident.

they think ure complicated,
i take that as far sighted.

they project hatred,
i never feel threatened.

to hell what they see, say or think,
those are the traits that makes who you are.

never as flaws, always as strengths.

i won’t take that as a problem,
in fact, i think ure awesome!

regardless the colour,
it is still a lie.

finally,
i am free.

just give me time,

for the heart
to be able to feel your touch,
and for my soul
to reveal its existence,

once again.

ikut kata hati,
memang dah lama mati,

sebab itu kita dianugerahkan minda,
untuk mengawal hati,
dari membuat perkara tanpa teliti berhati-hati.

Yes,
in searching for my heart and soul,
I found you.
And I fall deeply in love with you, my sayang.

I let you in slowly,
I let your affection and passion touch me layer by layer,
and I am able to finally be free from all the invisible chains and locks from within.

And you,
never for once,
try to take any advantage out of my love for you.

And for this sayang,
I have decided,
we are better off as friends – than lovers.

Coz I would rather sacrifice my love,
than losing a truly greatest friend ever.

drifted,
trapped,
got carried away.

too late to turn back time,
too high floating and dreaming,
too insane to re-assess anything.

then,
you said its over.

yet again,
my heart is smashed to smithereens.

no more love,
no more pain,
no more hope,
no more sense,

soulless once more.

You,
are special.
No more season,
no need reason.

Your tickle,
giggle and wiggle
Makes me want you
even more.

Your smell,
smile and snuggle,
Drives me crazier
than ever before.

You swept away the curse,
by bringing in joy.
You cast me on spell,
by nurturing tender, love and care.

Coz you,
You are like my own brand of heroine.

with the care,
and warmth

with the giggle,
and sulk

with the gaze
and cheeky smile

oh, there’s nothing better than this =)

“3 years? Well.. that doesn’t really leave you with much time. Depending on your speed, 1 year from now is achievable.”

and i?

stood there, speechless.

does not come along with age
it comes together with experience.

in other words,
you don’t have to be old to be wise.

sayang
ku hilang
dari pandangan
dari genggaman

sepi
lagi sunyi
tidak pergi-pergi
tetap menghantui

cinta
yang curang
jadi penghalang
takkan ku pegang

hati
ku mati
takkan ku ganti
biar aku sendiri
hingga akhir nanti

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